i feel like screaming out loud for making the wrong decision!
i regretted resigning Mac, & working full time at Warehouse.

though first day at Warehouse wasnt as bad as i'd initially assumed it would be, i can already foresee all the 'bad events' that is gonna happen pretty soon.

and the reason for that is because, i'm a full time there. & full time have to be really comitted to the job. regardless you're sick, regardless you're having some important event going on, if you have to attend work, means you have to attend. mak bapak kau mati pon kene datang keje agaknye!

i requested to be excused just for tomorrow & monday as i have extra class on sunday due to the upcoming examinations, & monday, cos i have an appointment with the doctor at SGH. to my horror, my request was rejected. and worst, the roster for the whole month of September is already out & to my horror plus surprise plus shock plus dont-know-what-lah, i was scheduled to work on Hari Raya itself!

this is what i hated most about working somewhere whereby my colleagues are mostly malays. hari raya pon susah nak dapat off.

i hate you, wing tai & warehouse. bleargh.
Blogger is such an irritant. I feel like shifting to another blogging network just so that I won't have to face such problems again. But, it's too troublesome lah. 'guessed i'll just have to bear with it till it recovers again which, I have no idea when.



Miss Selfridge have officially disowned me to give Warehouse the opportunity to adopt me. Hehe. Okay i know this sound pretty absurd. Truth is, the Wing Tai company decided to allocate me at Warehouse, Raffles City instead of Miss Selfridge, Paragon. Argh! another high-end boutique, well at least it is to me, due to the over-priced items sold there. I've been wondering how am I supposed to handle the highly-demanding customers. Customers in F&B line is already bad enough, I can't imagine how it's gonna be like in a boutique. As much as i'm excited to start this new job, the fear of not being able to adapt to a whole new working environment is indescribable.

oh, speaking about jobs, i'm already starting to miss teaching BADLY. & the reason why I'm not working there anymore is because, the parents of my kids (i was referring to my students) have complained & questioned the principal regarding the different teachers taking over my form class. They dislike the idea of their children being taught by different teachers everyday. & this only happen because I have to take MC or half day every now & then just to pay a regular visit to my BESTFRIEND (the hospital). All thanks to my eyes! Stupid eyes! I was soo looking forward to the Sports Day when the doctor announced that I have to be hospitalized. There goes my effort of training & getting them prepared for the event. Haizzzz. I miss being called "teacher Nia". I was lucky enough to have lots & lots of photos with the kids & especially, these 2 videos to ease the feeling of missing them.


the too-smart-for nursery boy who's very very obedient. he's the smallest & the cutest therefore, he's my favourite nursery kid. heh.


the girl who initially told me the story of "when i was a baby, i was beautiful & i cried really loud" but when i started recording, she changed it to "when i was a baby, my mum give me milk." how adorable. :)

Time flies so fast & before you realise it, the 3rd day of fasting is already over. Alhamdulillah, I managed to complete all 3 days though I was faced with lots of so called cobaan. Heh. Yan & myself break fast together on the first day at Pastamania. Well i suppose that's something new to us cos usually the first day is reserved for family right? But since I won't be seeing him till next Monday (fuuuhh. lama banget tu! another cobaan!), i decided to sacrifice my reserved day for the family to spend time with him (Ceh macam faham ajer!) .



Till whenever.
Good night.
With literally 4-and-a-half months to go before i fully served my National Service liability (serving the country), i initially expect life to be more relaxed, filled with unlimited off-days and less- demanding tasks. :)

So imagine my surprise when i check the upcoming schedule for the months ahead leading to ORD; it's worse than i could foresee. Not to mention the unreasonable amount of weekend duties they throw on me, i had to fulfill certain challenging tasks. Life is so unfair when especially you're in the army. You stay in camp for 5days in a row, and only get to bookout on weekends, which consists of saturdays and half of sundays. Now its more suckier than that; they expect u to bookout later on saturday mornings and book in earlier on sundays! What? Are they even human? Ive got a family, friends, and a girlfriend to spent time with, and they dont give a shit bout it. :<

Whatahell, ive been enduring this, cos ive missed tons of plans (i missed chalet gatherings, bbq, vacations) thanks to army! Disgusting! Absurd! Apalling! I feel like filling up this blog with every adjective/vocab that i could think of. And army pay sucks, big time! You've paid 600plus bucks for suffering in camp 5days a week, with the prospect of outfield camping in horrendously scary jungles such as tekong and not to mention the discipline/regimentation and lack of free time involved! Mix abit of army politics and there you have it; the perfect worst-paid job that you could ever imagine! :(

Compare to those in civil defence and the police force which has relatively higher pay, better welfare and more off-days/leave and you'll get what i mean. :(

So is the government trying to say that the Army is pale in comparison to the Home Team?
We in green sweat out tears and blood, got covered by grime and dirt, and spent most of our two years in camp doing nothing but the same ol' boring routine over, and over again...and the pay still suck.

Just 4and-a-half months yan, just tahan and then you could kiss army ass goodbye! x)

DECEMBER 13th, HERE I COME!!! X)

On a different note, at least there's something positive that i could get out of being in the army, cos its so demanding, disciplined, stressful, with great emphasis placed on high-efficiency, zero-errors and even-higher expectations from your superiors, that you're confident that you could handle the tougher real-working world later in life. :)

PIECE OF CAKE! :)


After searching high and low for a permanent full time job, I finally found one. But its not exactly the type of job that I really wanted tho, in fact, its a job I've always hated because of the super long hours of standing and putting on that fake smile regardless what happen.

And its Miss Selfridge, which items are way beyond my affordibility therefore, I have never make a purchase there. Pathetic right. Haha.

& worst, they have placed me at the Paragon's outlet; a bit too far away from home. If I'm still using the ezlink card with the double beep, I wouldnt be complaining about this. This is certainly my last resort since I can't get an office job, near home. Heh.

Oh wells. Gotta stop complaining already & be thankful instead.

Alhamdulillah. Heee.


Blogger has finally recovered. Yay!

Today was another time well spent together. We had initially planned to go to West Coast Park however, due to the bad weather, we figured out something better to do.

& so, we decided to go over to his house as he desperately wanted to show off how big his house was and how neat & tidy his bedroom was. So action. menyampah haha.

Then, he impressed me with this;




His hands (or fingers?) were trembling badly cos he was nervous as that was the first time he 'performed' infront of a girl. Hahahaha.

I hate to admit this, but seeing him on the keyboard playing such sweet song, had me 'melting' unnecessarily. I could have fainted, if I wanted to (exaggerating).

I'm neither good with words nor do I have such great vocab to be able to come up with fanciful words to express my gratitude, but I want you to know that I'm really grateful to have you.

Thank you for everything you've done, especially for the past few days (whereby i felt so pampered,hehe);
-thanks for the dress
-thanks for the belt
-thanks for the movie
-thanks for making my dream come true
-& most importantly, thanks for the time spent together.

I really want December to happen, please. Heee.

I used to find couples sharing blogs or other online social networks together very disturbing cos most of them tend to show off how deeply in love & how obsessed they are towards each other but look, I think I'm the one who's obsessed now. Argh.

Maybe this sharing of blog thingy is completely a bad idea. Yes? No?

I really don't know. Heh.

nia.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

i can't help it. i have to blog about this.

i was greeted with this message early this morning;

"Jika ditanya tentang cinta, mcm-mcm jawapannye tau..

Ada cinta yg bawa ceria, dan ada yg merana..

Ada yg sanggup berkorban ape sahaja, hilang kwn dan keluarga, lebih baik cinta pada yg Esa kan?

Kalau benar cinta itu buta, siapakah yg akan jadi mangsanya?

Kalau cinta itu cinta setia, kita akan nangis dan ketawa bersama.

Kalau kita boley beli cinta, berape pula harganya?

Jangan derita kerna cinta, kerna cinta itu bahagia..hehe x)

Ku mencintai mu..
Muacks!"

can i think it's funny, please? so much for "i tak dengar uh lagu melayu". hahaha! but it was a great effort to make my day though, really appreciate it. heh.

and his reason for liking the song, "i like the song cos of its positive perspective of love, and it brings positive thoughts to it.."

ceh!

nia.

i hate to use photobucket.

i wanted to blog badly, but blogger is being such a bitch nowadays. i don't know if the problem lies with my computer & lappy or blogger itself. all the buttons above doesn't seem to be working & it is so frustrating! i've waited for days, and the buttons are still not functioning. maybe just a short, dull entry will do for now. heh.

anyways, i'm feeling sooo much better now. no more headaches, no more backaches, & no more vomitting. yay! & this would not have happen if Yan didn't take good care of me on Saturday & gave me some useful tips to get rid of it. i didn't know that minyak kapak work wonders! i know this is weird but honestly, neither me, nor my family ever use minyak kapak before. haha.

ohh, speaking of him makes me miss him badly. wth. i'm anxiously counting down the days to Sunday, when i can finally get to see him. oh wells, i guess it's true when they say that absence makes the heart grow fonder. heee.

my gawd. this entry is so pathetic. only Yan is capable of coming up with something interesting to write about. heh.

& for now, i'd better start on my revision for the upcoming class test tomorrow.

all the best to me! hehe.

Nia
okay, i hate to say this, but there's this song which is clearly embedded in my mind, which never fails to remind me of her, whenever i listen to it, and it's "thinking of you" by Katy Perry.

i used to hate this song, cos it's so "girly" and so naive and it's a female perspective of a broken-down relationship she had with the ex. but somehow, the song reminds me of niya. maybe cos back then when i used to check out her blog (her own personal blog, not this one), this "thinking of you" song out of a sudden plays in the background, blaring through my speakers, startling me.

But that's the novelty of it, the song has somehow captured my heart, in a way that it never fails to remind me of niya, and i naturally shift from a "i-hate-this-song" to a "whoa-i-love-this-song" mindset. and now, "thinking of you" is a must-listen for me everytime i used my ipod, although the lyrics doesn't fit in very well with me. haha.

niya, if you're reading this, imagine this;

everytime i listen to "thinking of you", i will literally miss you badly, sweet right?

heh, i know :)

Yan Sufiyan
The side effect from the don't-know-what puncture I had on my spine is killing me. The pain is beyond words.

I can neither stand nor sit up straight, much less leaving my bed for more then 15 minutes. The drowsiness is enough to take my concious away.

I miss work and I wanna attend class badly.

4 days outcast from the outside world is enough for me & I'm definitely going to waste that 34 days of MC. Anyone wants it? Heh.

I wanna get well by Saturday so that I could meet Yan. I miss him so fucking much.

God, give me back my health please.


nia.
Yan gave me a week to write a "composition" about him & it only took me a day to complete it. The hospital stay brought me some inspiration on what to write about. Hehe. Thank goodness, there's wireless connection here, or else, I'll be bored to death by now. Hopefully, I could be discharge by tomorrow. This place is giving me the creeps. Bleeaarrgh~

So here it is. Pardon me for my weak vocabulary, I'm not good in writing. Heh.

Everything started when I was informed by Irfah that her cousin wanted to get to know me via Facebook.

I was fine with it, however, loyalty towards the worthless ex-boyfriend at that point of time had cause the reluctance to entertain his comments and messages in Facebook. In fact, I had rather found him a little too annoying for spamming my Facebook wall and photos for almost every weekend while me, on the other hand, did not even bother checking out his profile nor his photos.

But, despite being ignored for months, his determination in capturing my attention was still as strong as ever. His continuous efforts and perserverance finally caught my attention.

I started browsing through his profile, as well as his photos and surprisingly, I was somehow attracted.

I began responding to his comments and messages since I was officially unattached by then. And after a few MSN conversations, I willingly gave my number to him, get to know him better, became closer, and unexpectedly, fallen for him.

Md Sufiyan.

-gentleman
-knowledgeable, smart
-respectable
-loving
-compassionate
-wise, mature
-romantic
-simple
-hardly smokes
-have the same standard of religious knowledge as me
-decent family background
-think alike, able to relate well
-understanding

Conclusion
It is highly natural for a girl like me, to be traumatized by her past relationship, but that does not mean that all guys are the same, not all guys are qualified to be a jerk. Therefore, I should change this whole perspective I had towards guys, and learn how to trust him.

To simplify it all, he has everything I'm looking for in a guy. And on top of that, I have always wanted someone who could not only impressed me, but also my parents. I finally got mum's approval of seeing a guy after years since I first started dating and soon, it'll be my dad's turn.

I am unconditionally, irrevocably (sounds familiar eh? hehe) in love with Sufiyan.



Nia.
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Sufiyan,
Happy birthday to you!




Happy 21st birthday syg!

May you have a wonderful year ahead
&
Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki.

I love you!

ps: i'm sorry, again, for not being able to do anything for your birthday. :(


lots of love, Nia.