fear ripped my stomach as he answered my question.
it's been hardly 5 months since i encountered the last, most heartbreaking phase of life and i can foresee another one coming soon.

however, i hope that everything will be smooth sailing after that discussion & mutal agreement between us.
*prays hard*

if not, i shall accept whatever i'm fated for.

if its meant to be, it will be.

i miss July the 15th. :(
It seems like I'm having a hard time keeping myself at ease with the fact that I have to give that Silkair interview a miss. Dyamn. Nevermindlah, probably not my rezeki. Heh.

Believe it or not, I have yet to enjoy an off day since the first day of Hari Raya which makes this year's Hari Raya the most memorable one, if you know what I mean. Only God knows how much I had/will have to endure. It feels like I'm in the girly version of Army or something. Even Army boys get to enjoy at least 2 days of free & easy time in a week, right Yan? No?

Speaking of Hari Raya, I was quite amazed that I still receive green packets from all my aunts/uncles & also my grandparents. Its not that much though, but Alhamdulillah, better then nothing. Being a student is a bliss, even if it's just a part time one. You still get to enjoy this kind of special privileges which non-students won't be able to. Heeee.

Oh, I got pictures to share.

(the preparation for Hari Raya-Process of making Oat/Choc Chip cookies)



These are the ingredients for our cookies.



Cousin Atikah genteling the dough.



While waiting for the oven's timer to go off.



Atikah posing with the ball-like dough.



The smell of the cookies were too strong & yummy that we fail to resist the temptation of munching it. The three of us end up breaking fast even before the clock strikes 7. Heeee! shhhh!



Before putting them in the bottles, we must let it cool down first tau! Otherwise, it won't be crispy. (mum's advice)



& there they are. notice that some are burnt? Hehe.



When we're done with the cookies, Yan helped me to prepare sphagetti for break fast with the family. No, he didnt help. He just menyibuk and act only.




LOL.



I looked like a typical housewife eh. So fat and messy with that plain-&-pale-looking face.


work, study, work, study, work, meet bf to study again, work again, study.

i had a whole busy week last week due to the examinations. with limited off days, i was only granted with the opportunity of studying either before or after work most of the time. my sleeping debt is still not being paid yet. these eyebags are enough to ruin my face & the sudden outbreak of small tiny pimples is really damaging. god, this is infuriating.

on a different note, i'm starting to love my days at Warehouse despite having to withstand long hours of standing & talking, while fasting. lol. my colleagues & supervisor are super nice people, i must say. i was even allowed to do the daily-5-times-a-day-prayers there. how cool is that? heh. i've come to realised that every job has its own pros and cons. for example, the working environment at macs is the most happening & fun but the pay sucks big time. so i guess i would just have to accept the tedious working hours even if its to the extent of making me a no-lifer. lol.

i could hardly believe that hari raya is less then a week away. well, not much preparation is done yet though. thursday shall be the day i'll give my fullest attention to the preparations. the family has decided to go black this year; a color that really suits my mood for raya, if you know what i mean. Yan is wearing black also; like that fact can make a difference gitu. lol. its not like as if we're going to go out raya-ing together or something unless both of us decided to AWOL. heh.

i'm typing like a zombie.
i give up.
i'm paying my debt now.

good night.
i've heard people saying that when two people have too many things in common, think alike & have similar personalities, they won't get along well with each other in a relationship.

its like how magnets work; the law of magnetic poles states that like poles repel each other- when the north pole meets another north pole, they'll repel.

i strongly believe that relationships are just like magnets.

imagine this, how would a couple settle/solve an argument, when both have the same temper, same level of ego? nothing will be solved unless one decided to give in.

or how is it possible for them to show affection towards each other when both are too egoistic & expect one another to make the first move in showing it?

now, i truly understand the term 'my other half'. i think that the other half has to be exactly the same as that person himself/herself in terms of everything, to the extent of having similar features until its almost possible to trick others into thinking that they're brothers & sisters. in case you haven't got a clue of what i'm talking about, take a look at this:



and this



and also this (our most prominent feature;the bug tooth. lol)



okay, this is totally out of context.

i wonder if this relationship has the potential to really work out. i'm starting to have doubts. not because of the existence of a third party, but because of the too much similarities in us. having alot of similarities is good in certain ways; it helps alot when it comes to understanding each other. but when it comes to other things, darah aku up to the max siol!

having said all those, i will still put in my very best for this. i hope that this 'like poles' will attract each other just like the 'unlike poles' do. heh. i'll endure all the complications & imperfections of this relationship. i'm too tired to play the game of 'breaking up & patching up' again.

i'm a grown up girl afterall.
ceh!

good night.