goodbye
Monday, December 14, 2009, 2:14 PM
Everything has officially come to an end. However, life goes on. Neither me nor Yan will be blogging here anymore. Having said that, I shall not delete this blog for it holds a lot of unforgettable memories for me.

We have come to a mutual agreement to be just friends. Really close friends, like how it all started. Like Bella & Jacob, heh. I shall not be emotional or bear grudges against him like I used to with the exes. Everything is just so different this time, I've never felt this calm going through a break up.

I believe that if we're destined to be together, we will eventually get back together. I'll leave everything to fate for now.

Goodbye.


lots of love,
Nia.

Jacob vs Edward
Wednesday, December 2, 2009, 7:25 PM




OMG OMG OMG!! i'm soooo into Taylor Lautner a.k.a Jacob Black nowadays. he's goddamn HOT HOT HOT! arrrghh!

though i watched New Moon with boyfie, that is certainly not an excuse for me NOT to drool over this hot stuff. it can't be helped, really! & Yan, sorry for telling you off for giving comments during the movie last Saturday. i was concentrating too much on Jacob that i didn't want any distractions. heheheheh.

I don't like Edward already, even though i like the character. hehehe. ok this is so random.

i need food now. bye!

this is life
, 12:14 AM
it's December already. oh my, time flies sooo freaking fast & without realising, i'm turning 21 in 5 months time! now, I truly understand why I was told that once you've reached 20, you'll feel that you're ageing very fast. & it seems like it was just yesterday when I celebrated my 18th birthday, with my sweet ITE mates, who had surprised me with a birthday cake & a birthday song just minutes before school ended. oh how i missed those times. :(

so.. 27 more days to becoming a full time teacher. Yeah baby. I'm gonna be a teacher soon! weee! I've tendered my resignation at Warehouse. BUT, my supervisor managed to talk me out of it. & as a result of my colleague & supervisor's constant "psychoing" for me to stay, I've decided to convert to a part time at Warehouse. woah, 2 jobs eh. I feel like a supergirl.

the offer that the new job had given me is soo irresistable, you know. they'll be sponsoring me for a course in April; a course which somehow,someway,is associated with Singapore & Temasek Poly. 5 days a week, & school holidays are holidays for me too! hehe, well not exactly though. the holiday i'll be getting would most probably be half of the duration of the school holidays. best per! hehe!

oh well. things have not been good between Yan & me. he's considering a break up, due to his lack of confidence in the longevity of the relationship. he strongly believes that we're going no where with this relationship from all the misunderstandings we had & also our future, individual's commitment to work & studies. hais. having said that, we're still working on it though. he's still treating me the way a girlfriend should be treated so I guessed that's good enough huh.

& i'll pray that we'll have a chance to watch this building being built together. I'll make sure it happen. heh.

the story behind the keychain
Monday, November 16, 2009, 1:00 AM
it was a night full of arguments over silly little things. but who'd have thought that the egoistic Yan can actually be oh-so-romantically-sweet. it was really unpredictable. i was dumbfounded for a moment after i opened up the small red box which carries a keychain with 3 hearts and a pair of slippers as well as a letter, nicely & neatly typed & printed out.

& it was almost impossible to hold back my tears after reading this:

Dear Niya,

Through all the thunderstorms and darkest clouds that had been set upon me, I was looking for a hope; a beacon of light that could shine brightly even in this unpredictable, adverse conditions. Luckily for me, that beacon of light was you, Nur Saniyah. You brought me hope when I thought there wasn't any, and you showed me love that I never thought had ever existed in this current reality of mine.

You may be puzzled by the fact that why I would present you with a gift out of a sudden, without any hint of anticipation or cause for a celebration.

Let me tell you that I believed in presenting gifts to only a selected few whom I personally found special, deserving and most importantly, I'm very much in love with.

First and foremost, let me apologise; this gift is simple and unimaginative.

Secondly, there's a story behind it;

It's not just another "normal, typical keychain". It has a special value attached to it, because it's actually a gift from one of my "kakak sedara". And she told me to give it to someone truly deserving and special (obviously you, hehe).

And by the way, wondered if you had noticed, that three equally identical hearts and a pair of glass slippers is attached to the keychain.

There's a story behind that too. One of the hearts symbolizes mine, while the other heart is yours, and that leaves us with the third heart; It represents Yan Junior's Heart!! Forgotten? Yan Junior is the name of the bear that you given me!

And how about the glass slippers? Okay, do you know the Cinderella story? It's about a girl who never believed in herself at first, was humble and possesses unrivalled hidden natural beauty which outshines her other pretty but cocky sisters. In the end, she married the guy of her dreams, the Prince Charming. And guess what? You are just like Cinderella, a girl lost in her life, but after wearing the glass slippers, she found her Prince Charming (which is ME, hehehe).

Well I guessed that's all I have to say for now. And yeah, I bet you wanna sms me now after reading this, hehe. Hopefully, you'll like the simple, unimaginative but truly special gift from me.


With Love
Sufiyan.

the assurance is very much needed. now, i don't have to feel that insecure anymore. heh.

sweet dreams.



loser=me
Saturday, November 7, 2009, 12:30 AM
it happened too fast.
4 months seems like 4 years.

i have 2 wishes.
firstly, i wished that it never happened.
secondly, i wished that i have the power to adjust time and make it remain at any time i want.

things always gets complicated/messed up, no matter what i did/do.
i guessed i was born with the word 'loser' plastered all over my face.

& mum would have aborted me if she knows that she's gonna give birth to a loser.

ah, i'm talking crap.

nites.

monday blues
Monday, October 26, 2009, 11:14 AM
stupid bitch.
she should have the courtesy to come back to warehouse & pay the 100bucks for the item that i undercharged her!
if its not for the 100 bucks, i would'nt be broke right now.
i swear that she'll have rashes after wearing that dress.
padan muke kau!! hahahahah!

even though that incident happen almost 3 weeks ago, i'm still pissed off.
cos if i still have that 100bucks with me, i wouldn't be bringing home-cooked food almost every single day to work. its a chore to do that, you know. & better, i don't have to depend on bf to pay for everything each time we go out. that really dampen my ego. it's like i'm not independent enough to pay for my own expenses. argh!

on top of this unfortunate things, due to my clumsiness, i left my wallet at work yesterday. it's my off day today so... i still have to go to my workplace later to take back my wallet. irritating ey?

what a monday.


slimming jamu
Wednesday, October 21, 2009, 1:21 AM
its 1.25 am now and i'm still wide awake.
i can't sleep.

i called bf just now and he didnt answer.
oh well. he's probably asleep by now.
he must be tired after a long day of work.

hopefully, tomorrow won't be that busy at work.
so i could knock off early and meet the loverboy.
cause he'll refuse to meet me if i knock off late.
can't blame him uh.
jumpe kejap pon tak gune kan.

i'm anxiously counting down the days to pay day.
approximately 9 more days to go.
i can't wait to shop!
its the sales season now, whereby prices are reduced tremendously.
and on top of that, i'm still entitled to the staff discount, not only at warehouse, but topshop, miss selfridge, dorothy perkins & lots more!
now, can i say that i love retail? haha!

my stomach is grumbling right now.
i'm really hungry that i think i can eat a whole goat.
but i don't know if i should get something to eat.
cos currently i'm on a diet.
well, apparently, the bf thinks that i'm too plum and suggested that i should do something about it.
yela, orang tu punye badan kan da hot, so the gf pun haruslah slim2, kayak model gitu.
ishk. i don't know uh. all my friends think that i'm insane for trying to lose weight. cos they think i am neither fat nor plum at all. not even close.

i was at the kedai jamu earlier today and i almost bought the slimming jamu.
it was damn cheap, and i was really tempted to buy.
but i decided not to.
i believe i can do it in the 'natural' way. hah.
demi kekasihku yg amat ku cintai, ku sanggup di label as crazy.
haha!

k ciao.
good night.